You know what, I hate being gay. It such hard work. Like, seriously. To qualify as an “ideal gay guy”, you need at least one of the following things:
- To be extremely, mind blowing hot/cute
- The best body ever
- Be a party animal willing to club or get drunk at every occasion
If you’re not, then sorry, but nobody is gonna take you seriously. A real conversation I had on an app this evening;
Guy: “Hey, what are you up to this evening?”
Me: “Nothing much, maybe just gonna hang out.”
Guy: “Oh nice, wanna come to Heaven (a famous London gay club) with us tonight?”
Me: “Oh, no, sorry, I’m not really into clubbing.”
Guy: “Oh, I see, you’re one of those geeks lol”
In this situation, had I got amazing looks or a hot body on my side, an arrangement for coffee or dinner another day would follow. But, because I don’t, I got called a geek. Like, I don’t mind being called a geek but not if there is stigma attached to it like in that sentence. And it certainly doesn’t help my “gay appeal” by being into gaming and asian culture. So it makes it almost impossible to even find friends whilst I’m working in London, let alone even think about a relationship. Finding gay or bi guys with my interests is like striking oil, and if I find them it’s usually online or they’re nowhere near me, and then if I try and talk to them or approach them I just come across like some needy weirdo.
I’m basically sick of this gay culture I have to be a part of. It’s really, really tiring. I want someone to take me seriously for who I am, not treat me like I’m something sub-human because I don’t love to work out on weeknights and get wasted at the weekend. That’s not me.